monsters

i am a monster. inside me lives a monster. many monsters. all we do is fight all day. I can't stand living in my own head. he's there. i want him to go away. heart pulling. monsters pulling. they fight. i want it to go away. people go away. the thoughts stay. the thoughts increase. people leave. i am alone. i will always be alone. i will always be alone because i don't know who i am. there are too many things going on inside of me. death. death is an escape. i am too afraid. life is pain. death is pain. i have to live. i would be afraid if i had to die.